Love

Have you ever felt lonely in a situation?? Maybe you have been in a season where there didn't seem to be anyone who could understand the pain your heart was going through or a nearby listening ear that wanted to know what was on your heart. It's been hard to process the seasons and change He has been bringing me through, and there are aspects of it that have made me wonder if He's still in control. Parts that have made me feel alone.
Just last week i hit a wall of discouragement. I thought i would've received more direction and clarity regarding an important decision i needed to make. But, instead i didn't hear anything from Him or feel anything. Tears begun to fall from frustration, then out of nowhere i heard Him say, "My Katherine, if i asked you to jump out of a window, and you knew that i was on the ground ready to catch you, would you trust me enough to jump?"
He asked me to answer honestly... and in the depths of my heart i wanted to say that i did. But i told Him i was struggling to see His love for me in the midst of my circumstances and grief.  I told Him that in that moment, i couldn't jump.  You see, pain and grief can make you turn from Him instead of running into His arms of safety.  It can make you turn bitter, hopeless, or lost.  He sees when we struggle and when we can't seem to see Him in our present circumstances. But just like He so faithfully reminded me yesterday, nothing could quench His fierce love for me. Even if i struggle to see who He is, even if i wrestle believing that HE IS GOOD.  He overwhelmed me with His love yesterday. I tell you this to remind you of the hope you have in Him. This season won't last forever.  That there is a light around the corner. His hand is right there for you to grab, and His arms are open for you to crawl into. Keep pressing into truth, into scripture, and worship until your heart is firmly planted on these truths. He is faithful.

xoxox,
Rosie