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hello friends and new readers, 
or people who just happened to come across my blog =)

i Recently came across a quote on pinterest, and it has been echoing in my mind and into my heart.

''and i know that every day the Lord is dancing over me,
turning my feeble steps into a mighty march for his glory''

i'm not exactly sure whom it's by, but it impacted me.

a revelation came to me on Sunday during the sermon,
 that the Lord is proud of me. He rejoices over me. He dances over me, and sings over me.  why wouldn't He? i am His daughter. 
So often we let our sin, our mistakes, our pain, and our wounds define who we are. Instead of going to God to discover how He defines us. Just the beginning of last year i was trapped by pleasing people. I was trapped by relying on compliments and best friends to feel my worth. 

but it only made me feel empty inside. i never felt complete. it wasn't until He allowed someone dear to me walk out of my life, that i realized that all i needed was Him. it made me go to Christ with everything, and it made me rely on Him with everything i had. i never would've imagined that  something so rough, could grow me in such a deep way. it didn't define me as ''friendless'' but ''stronger''. i've been discovering that He uses all the hard trials, and all the heartbreaks and He turns it into something beautiful. He truly does turn beauty from ashes. 

i was living a life of having friends compliments define me, whether their words were hurtful or encouraging. i went to makeup to define my beauty. 
i was searching, i was searching for an answer as to why i felt so empty, and why my friendships felt so shallow. but it took me going through such heartache and pain, and coming to the end of myself to realize that the answer was always in front of me. 

the answer was covered in blood stained red, with holes in His hands. 

i looked into His eyes, and His thoughts replaced my thoughts.


He viewed me as worthy,

precious,
radient,
loyal,
a true friend,
beautiful,
He is proud of me.

and He didn't hate me because of my sin,
bust instead He hated just the sin. i felt every chain of bondage fall off at His cross. and i felt His every tear that he wept for me heal my heart. He cleansed me. He made me into something new. He turned ashes into beauty. 

i feel like I'm rambling, 
 but my point is, that He is the one who defines us.
not friendships, makeup, words, compliments.

He turns hardships, pain, and brokenness and turns it into something beautiful. He helps us dance through the storm.
he allows his children to reach the end of themselves so that they would reach for him. 

He is knocking on our hearts. He wants you to answer.
don't be afraid, don't try to hide your shame from Him, don't try to cover up the suffering. He wants all of you, and He wants to take your heart and  make it into something new.

so i invite you, whether you're subscribed to my blog, 
or you are reading it for the first time, 

to be brave.

i invite you to comment and share your story. whether you are a believer or not, i invite you to share what trials or joys you are going through,
or the doubts that you are experiencing regarding God, 
do you truly believe that God is good? and that He can turn such ugliness into such beauty? or are you having a hard time believing that His grace is for you? how did this blog post specially impact you?
i want to hear from you.


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